Its been a while

Yes, its been a while since I have posted. Well, I'm studying/taking law school finals. So you will just have to deal with the loss of my posts. As if you read them ;-) Don't you worry, there is plenty of foder for me to set ablaze on this blog, and the time will come when you will see a greater blaze than that which glowed in Rome as Nero played the violin. But until that time...rock and roll, deal with it.

Some serious lyrics time

This time, its Rascal Flatt's "What Hurts the Most".

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away, all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

Gazing into the night...

Tonight I went out to the beach at Surfside to gaze at the meteor shower over the eastern sky. Granted I live in Miami and the city lights make it hard to see stars, let alone meteors, but every once in a while a streak of white would dart across the sky. It brought back memories of when I went on a cross country trip with my parents when I was little. Beginning our day early in the morning darkness, I laid in the backseat and gazed at another meteor shower through the back window. So many years have gone, and so much has happened, but the feeling of seeing those darts of light still hasn't changed.

But I thought of all those who can't see those lights. Who choose not to see the beauty of God. And those who are unable. Not everyone has the opportunity to go to a beach, alone, in Miami, to see the little stars fall from the sky. And yet I do, and I did. And I hope everyone could at one point in their life do that.

And not just look at the meteors, but to just lay on a beach at night, as the constant wind carries the cold Atlantic waves onto the powder-white beaches. The sounds of the city are lost to the berms, and only the black sky, myself, the two dippers, and the waves occupy my life.

And I wondered, what is a meteor? In that, is it starting its trip to someplace new, or leaving its past? Is it a rising sun, or setting into it's own night? Or is it forever on the move, never able to call a place home...never to settle and realize a stable existence?

Fleetwood Mac is good sh*t

"DON'T STOP", by FLEETWOOD MAC

If you wake up and dont want to smile,
If it takes just a little while,
Open your eyes and look at the day,
Youll see things in a different way.

Dont stop, thinking about tomorrow,
Dont stop, itll soon be here,
Itll be, better than before,
Yesterdays gone, yesterdays gone.

Why not think about times to come,
And not about the things that youve done,
If your life was bad to you,
Just think what tomorrow will do.

Dont stop, thinking about tomorrow,
Dont stop, itll soon be here,
Itll be, better than before,
Yesterdays gone, yesterdays gone.

All I want is to see you smile,
If it takes just a little while,
I know you dont believe that its true,
I never meant any harm to you.

Dont stop, thinking about tomorrow,
Dont stop, itll soon be here,
Itll be, better than before,
Yesterdays gone, yesterdays gone.

Dont you look back,
Dont you look back.

Conspiracy Theory time, pt. 2

So, people obviously make this allegation all the time. But I thought it was interesting when I actually saw it happen before my eyes. As the elections got closer, gas prices went down. And literally, within a day or two after the elections, gas prices went back up. And I'm talking a jump of $2.14 the day of the election to $2.24 within a day or two after. VERY intriguing.

The start of a new quarter century

So I turned 25 this past Monday, and it was quite uneventful. Not to say that the weekend wasn't, but lets not call those events desired. Yet in all honesty, the past year has been the worst of my life. Few, if anyone, truly knows every little detail of all that happened in the past year. Well, it sucked. Like I said, the worst year of my life. But as someone told me just the other day, you gotta just roll with the punches. [That same person then went on with half a dozen other little phrases and quotes, which I really appreciated :-)]

When I was a sophomore in college, I ran for an office in student government. The party I was running with was the dominant party for the past 6 or 7 years on campus, and it was thought that we were a lock for victory. Well, we lost, and lost bad. I too lost, garnering only 666 votes (oh yeah). The SGA VP (a member of our party, but not up for election at that time) came to a few of us who were standing in the union that night after hearing the votes, and gave us a few words of advice. And those words have stuck with me since. "We may have fallen today, but we have fallen on our backs...and we are looking up."

Yes, this past year was the worst of my life, but its over and I'm still around. I have great friends around me and people I know who love me. I'm still around, and I'm not done fighting. I've only been around for 25 years. I plan on going on for another 50 years, so I'll just take some notes and learn from these trials. I've got a long ways to go and I don't have enough time to sit around and worry about the past.

Some interesting words to live by, or at least think about

Someone sent this to me the other day, and I felt they were some good words. Listen to them or ignore them, they are good to at least look at and think about.

Say nice things and learn to listen.
God gave us two ears and one mouth,
So He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking.

"He who guards his lips guards his soul."
Proverbs 13:3